I need a new dream...

CellarDoor 2003-10-14 12:32:54 ET Since I have been consistently writing songs and lyrics on my poetry site, I am falling further and further into a dream of starting a band. It almost hurts how much I feel it inside me to perform... It's like this amazing driving force that leaves me exhausted at the end of each day. I want this so bad and yet cannot have it. I have no money. I have no real ability at singing or drumming or anything for that matter. I'm just a fool with a Bass and an Acoustic Guitar and a very creative mind... I am constantly losing myself in my playing. The other day I sat down on my bed and just started playing and my roommate left and came back and left again to only return once mor eto me playing still. 2 hours... and I didn't realize it until I got up and almost collapsed from the pain of my numb legs. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH!!! "Talking is just mastubating without the mess.."

NeonDream 2003-10-14 13:16:28 ET FIRST: i love the quote. NEXT: losing myself is cool, makes me forget i exist for a short period of time. kinda invigorating and spiritual? eh? i dont know.

DigitalPirate 2003-10-14 13:39:36 ET you obviously can play guitar--- besides bands just dont happen overnight. perhaps you could just start out with a band of guys playing back up guitar until you all get better, and then you could perform like you so obviously should. you definatly have the spirit for it. however, good luck to you man...oh and if you are in colledge, then perhaps try posting some flyers about starting a band. there are so many people prolly feeling the same way you do--you just have to go out and find them. ya know? :)

CellarDoor 2003-10-17 07:42:12 ET Neon - it's one of my favorite quotes from a song but most people don't really like it when i quote it... and i have been forgetting myself for the majority of my life that i can't really be too sure anymore of the things i've really done... or the things that have done me... Pirate - well i still have a long way to go before i reach my peak on the guitar but i'm really trying to get my name out there and get some exposure... i play bass and acoustic(just cuz i don't have any money for an electric) so i'm pretty well known with the musician's circle so who knows... i just need to get out there and jam with people more often... i never do that naymore and if i did i bet i could put some profjects together

NeonDream 2003-10-17 18:08:57 ET things that have done you....*giggles*

CellarDoor 2003-10-17 22:16:27 ET hehehe... that's a little sexual huh? PG-13 Explanation: I seem to be losing control of the events in my life lately and so it's more like me reacting to an event rather than being actively participating in my life R Explanation: I seem to be losing control of the events in my life lately and so it's more like me reacting to an event rather than being actively participating in my life and oh yeah... having sex

Neko2631 2003-10-19 15:49:08 ET ...You're having sex? o.o Hey love... is any other venue of music an option for you? Working behind the scenes or maybe writing songs... or not performing for a career but playing at clubs once a week or so? Ptobably not hitting it big, but still playing for an audience, I mean.

CellarDoor 2003-10-19 18:50:50 ET "and i have been forgetting myself for the majority of my life that i can't really be too sure anymore of the things i've really done... or the things that have done me..." I had written that earlier to NeonDream and she had made a joke about the last part so I decided to play along and have a movie theme explanation and then make one R-Rated and just add the "having sex" part. So I'm not "having sex", making sexual references in a completely non-pleasurable way... if you see what I mean. I think I would hate myself if I didn't perform my songs but I wouldn't have to hit it big so as to make it a fun experience. It would be awesome if it happened but I would rather have my day job and then my nightly "emotional exfoliation". I have been writing songs all the time but it seems all that I can think about lately is finding a singer and just performing everywhere, anywhere, someplace and just getting our sound out. So I would love to just have a friend and me to jam onstage infront of a group of people and just have fun. So nothing big. "emotional exfoliation" - I actually heard someone say that today and it made me laugh. It's kind of poetic and yet it's a little just plain weird so I felt I had to use it in a sentence.

NeonDream 2003-10-19 19:20:15 ET i need emotional exfoliation! i need to be cleansed my emotions havent had a good scrubbin in....ever. that might explain why im all...dsafjasfjdhaklj-ish. ya know?

Neko2631 2003-10-19 20:08:55 ET Here here!! Cheers for exfoliation! What sort of music do you play?

CellarDoor 2003-10-20 07:24:47 ET Hmmm... see that's the hard part. It's more progressive but atmospheric, not alot of soloing(even though I do a lot when jamming with people) but very transitional. So there are a lot of chord patterns but it's not solely driven by the transitions. The picking patterns are pretty out there I think but it seems like most people like it a lot. It's really a lot of just build-ups, which I'm a very big fan of, and then a lot of just weird bridges. So my songs get a little long sometimes but they are always changing so most people don't realize how long they've been listening for. I'll have to get my friend to record me playing on his computer and set up someplace to download from. My big influences are incubus(mike is my idol), system of a down, Coheed and Cambria(their song structure is almost parallel to mine) and JEW... but those are only the ones that I admit to so there are probably tons more. There always are.

Neko2631 2003-10-20 11:54:54 ET Sounds like a nice combo!

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