2007-12-16 15:58:18 ET|
I am not completely sure why, but lately I have been screaming on the inside and faking happy.
Maybe itís the season, but I mean... I don't know what I mean...
Work is going great however... I found out last night that I passed my national certification test... My NCCT, I am now a CERTIFIED CODER... itís awesome, I also will get a raise at work, which is awesome...
But all this and I am still so so... I donít want to say sad, or angry, but I can't think of any other emotions that fit it...
I am lost... It seems like it wonít get any better... though I know it will, it always does... And besides this is what I do, survive, itís what I'm best at..