2004-01-13 14:20:28 ET|
yes, today was my first day of going to Long Beach City College. And it was wonderful! Well, for the most part. I got an Anthropology teacher who doesn't talk very loud, and it's crowded and there's a gang of fuckhead kids who have stupid-ass conversations while the quiet teacher is talking. Other than that, fabulous. I got a really cool philosophy teacher. My psychology teacher is really cool too. I think everything's gonna work out nice and fuckin' dandy.
So yeah, other stuff in my life. I've been hanging out with my friend Molly who just recently moved to Long Beach. She's really cool. She's got some mighty-fine assets: she likes to cook, she uses obscure-ass words, she likes good music and collects records, she likes to drink, she likes to draw, etc...good stuff that Daniel likes.
And yeah, we keep gettin' it on. Like, the whole 9-yards-type gettin' it on. And I'm okay with that, 'cause I like to get it on. Thing is I know this isn't some safe "we're just friends who like to mack it every here-and-there;" I think that she like-likes me. You know how you can tell when someone likes you? Shit like she keeps making me dinner and buying me booze and molesting me when I'm sleeping, the shit that indicates that someone may like you more than just a friend. But I'm not really into her that way. Like, at all.
It's like, you know when you got something 'cause you get that twinkly feeling when you kiss n' shit and you wish the moment could last for a really long time? I don't get that. I get thoughts like "damn, I really wanna have a cigerette" or "I should go home and make some beats" or "I wonder how much money is in my bank account?" And I'm entering the total-asshole zone where I'm prolonging this thing 'cause I like the benefits. Isn't that terrible?
I mean, she's really cool, like I said, but there's no future in it. It'd be cool if it was just a temporary horny thang, but I'm getting the feeling that this is gonna turn into yet another situation where I end up hurting someones feelings and losing a friend. I've told her many times that I don't want a serious relationship and that we're just mackin' it 'cause mackin' it is a quality use of time. Nothing more. So I'm not like leading her on...technically.
Whatever. We'll see. As for now, I'm gonna smoke some weed and take a shower, then I'm gonna eat a sandwich and listen to music. Then after that, I'll probably go to Molly's and get my mack on.