2003-06-20 08:16:43 ET|
I went to my home town on Sunday (the ever-so-dreadful high-desert) to attend a graduation dinner and after-party for my friend Vanessa. Actually, like, my former-soulmate, my former girlfriend of, like, 7 years, off and on. ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR....it went really well though. Saw a bunch of old friends. Got drunk. Climbed mountains. Swam. Hugged. Talked. Screamed. Laughed. A whole bunch of love.
I doth loathe seeing my girl drive away at the end of the night with someone else, but fuck it. I'm not gonna sob over this shit, I'm gonna pro-create over this shit. That's the mode I'm trying to maintain, 'cause if I slip for one second, I will sob. I'll sob forever. A sob-slob can sod-off for all I fucking care. I ain't no fuckin' wanker. Fuck that.
I miss love...wait, LOVE IS EVERYWHERE! OMNIPRESENT! OPEN YOUR EYES DANIEL! LOVE IS SCREAMING AT YOU, EXPLODING LIKE FIREWORKS! FEEL IT DANIEL! FEEL IT INSIDE OF YOU! "All is full of love"
I'm going to this undergroud art show/party this saturday. It's called OOTS, this crew that does these art shows where they got free alcohol and lots of great people to talk to. I love parties! I'm gonna hand out tons of my music to people. I'm really excited 'cause I always get into conversations about music-ideas with people, but never have anything to represent what I'm trying to do. Today, before work, I'm going to Kinkos to burn covers and burn CDs (and get totally spun on espresso).
So yeah...I'm like a fucking ocean right now, with tides high (and low). I'm tettering between an ecstatic level of bliss and a black hole of melancholy. It's total inspiration.