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2002-09-29 14:28:25 ET so much going on .. good friends not happy, me not happy, me having the thoughts that my grade in english wont be a C tomorow meaning i wont be able to go to Poison The Well tomororrow. *Sniffle* and while all this is going on I'm listening to radiohead. let's see, i cleaned the house set up the stereo made everyone lunch and now i have to finish my homework i dont know how to do .. hhmmm..if i dont get to go to the show ill be even more depressed than i already am and ill just buy multiple cd's.. still not the same. sadness in my veins. im a whiner. i went to a killer party on friday and saw good friends yesterday at bob's house.. but i still feel bad... wait i thin i know what is wrong.. on friday my good friend Jana was being very distant to me and i tried to ask her and she said (as is now being usual) "you hate me" and i said" no you hate me .. why are you being so distant" and she sadi well it seems like you dont have enough time for me, your too busy being allen, the cool guy" it hit me like a ton of fuckin bricks, and it really hurt too, all i could respond with was "thats not true i always have time for jana" quikly correcting myself with "wait thats not true anymore either " due to the fact that this girl that really likes me and i dont dig was near (and i hardly ever talk to her), jana seemed apalled and walked off .. that really hurt tho ... but she is fucking right ...i am too busy bein allen and i am not giving enought attention to the poeple i really care abut most.. fuck i wish i wasnt grounded anymore |
