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My name is Dez. I'm also Auslander on the syko forums.
I'm a big fan of comic books, cartoons, video games, stand-up, and heavy metal.
Favorites include but are not limited to:
-Deadpool
-Hellboy
-Venture Bros.
-The Critic
-Castlevania
-Legacy of Kain
-Patton Oswalt
-Dave Attel
-Mastodon
-Queens of the Stone Age
I have a cat. Her name is Mina. There is also another cat in this house. His name is Stevie Ray/Grunt.
I am also a Dwarven blacksmith. With a pinch of half-elf thrown in for good measure.
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| Like A Bad Star | 2008-07-01 23:53:07 ET |
Sometimes I wonder if I have an inferiority complex or a superiority complex. While there are times when I think everyone, while not necessarily not worht living, is less intelligent than I am and that some should be put in special camps. Special work camps.*
However, there are times, especially lately, where I feel like shit. I always think that no one likes me. I think anytime someome's upset, its about me. I never think I'm making Her happy enough. Or if She's unhappy, that is my fault.
I wish I could stop, but...I dunno. I wanna say I would if people acted like they cared, but I can't expect everyone to fawn over me forever. I suppose that I'll just have to get over this on my own at some point.
I've just been so goddamn lonely lately. I've pretty much been "by myself" for for about 6 or so years now. I've never really "hung" out with friends because either A. I didn't have any, or B. They were lame and never wanted to hang out. Now I think all that alone time is starting to catch up with me. I mean, usually I love having the house to myself, but I guess this was just a bad time. Its empty and I have no one to go hang out with. Everyone seems so distant lately.
*sigh*
I just want the people I like to like me. And include me in things. Pay me complements form time to time. Something! Let me know that I'm important.
Or don't. Whatever. I'm tired.
*Note: Not pikachu. Please don't sue.
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| God's Away on Business | 2008-06-30 02:08:55 ET |
I'm super lonely lately. For no real reason, my bed seems to much bigger and empty now. Although part of this may stem from the fact that the sheets/blankets/pillow cases need to be washed soon and the matress doesn't have the bedspread-thing on it.
But then I'm lazy. Maybe I'll do laundry tomorrow.
But I digress.
Someone should play music with me. This shit is getting ridiculous. I have no one to play with. Blah. Anyway, I should be getting that head this Wednesday. Lets hope so.
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| Cocks and Cunts | 2008-06-29 02:52:20 ET |
Joe Quesada is a huge twaticus. Its his fault Spider-Man sucks now. Why must he be a super-penis? I really do hope he doesn't retcon the new Thor stuff (written by the same guy who did that run on Spider-Man). I will be soooooo goddamn pissed if he does. Cuz that stuff (despite the recent one-shot that gave Thor Sleipnir [in addition to making Sleipnir's origin nonsense] for no particular reason)
I mean c'mon, the guy made his name doing art for Ninjak and X-O Manowar! This is the guy Marvel wants dipping his dirty pen in all of their books?! Gah.
Plus he's a fat guy.
McCain calls his wife a trollop and a cunt and no one cares? Yet a black man says some stuff about white people and people lose their shit. Gay. Gaygaygay.
Oh well. At least that Harpy isn't in the race anymore.
On a completely, and entirely different note, my girlfriend is amazingly hot. Like, supernova hot. Like a Megan Fox, Scarlet Johannson and Jessica Biel orgy. Word.
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| Keep it tucked in your eyes, wet and alive/Seaweed inside.... | 2008-06-27 02:00:58 ET |
Here's a list of the titles of the aforementioned songs (description/possible demos to come later):
Dark Matter*
Izayoi
Salamander
From the Deep*
Riding The Gallows (Steed of the Terrible)
The Castle Beyond the Forest
Axe of Ikus
Ginnungagap
Djehuty
The Lord Shaper (Working title)
Dirty Swine
So far only two(*) have managed to take aural shape. I have a loose idea of where most, if not all, of them are going. It's just a matter of having a writing partner to help play my ideas (As much as I love it. the bass can be fairly limited in frequencies at times).
I actually just started listening to Gustav Holsts's The Planets, and that's sort of them same thing I'm going for: To paint a picture with sound. I want something that instantly conjures something in the lisenter's mind's eye. Also I might steal some stuff from it. Most probably from Mars, but possibly some of the other pieces.
Also, please note that while the titles might suggest it, none of this music is power metal. Not that there's anything wrong with it, I just don't want people expecting Manowar, when instead they get Electric Wizard or something.
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| "Healer, take the fun/I am ashamed of danger/release the bite/life is forever" | 2008-06-25 04:22:09 ET |
So things are very much looking up now. Various worries and potential-problems have, or are in the process of, reconciled themselves. I am hopeful.
But I digress.
WTF is with everyone getting pregnant right out of high school?? Slow that shit down, holmes. Four people I went to high school with (and had contact with) are either pregnant, or just had a baby. That doesn't sound like a lot, but when you don't know anybody, it seems like it. Plus a friend of mine says that a bunch of her friends are in the same boat.
Seriously, wtf is going on? Did you kids forget to wrap it up? Did it break? I can't honestly believe you wanted to pop some kids out this early, and pretty much ruin any social life you could've had for a couple years.
I mean, I know kids are great, blah blah blah, and that "they're worth it" *looks away*, but do you really hate having fun? I mean you can't really go to concerts, or movies, or to museums, or any place that doesn't kowtow to the those (mostly) irritating sacks of meat. I just can't wrap my brain around this one. I much prefer having fun, and, perhaps more importantly, having sex.
But I digress.
I have a powerful urge to write a song called (D)Jehuty. I don't know what it would be about, but the name says "Dissonant and Noisey. Possibly like Burnt by the Sun." I don't know yet.
The nice thing is that if all the songs I have ideas for come to fruition, thats easily a full-length record's worth of material. Possibly more, as I imagine some of the tracks being 6+ minutes.
Now if only I could find someone to write with....
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| Lion Slicer | 2008-06-23 23:44:46 ET |
Things are looking up, I think.
I'm finally out of my weird funk-thing.
Maybe things will start to turn around? Lets hope so.
Maybe this is Freya's doing......
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| Burn Your Game Plan (An Open Letter) | 2008-06-19 05:07:09 ET |
I won't lie.
This does sorta hurt. Not a whole lot, but a little.
I just worry about you a lot. And now I think you hate me. I seemed to have majorly upset you at least 3 times today. Which is pretty much the opposite of what I want.
My major fear, basically, is that you'll realize that you're better off living on your own and that you won't want to live with me.
I never want to force you to do anything you don't want to.
However, you should realize that, any way you cut this, you basically said "I don't want to live with you". I know there's always the future, but you have to realize that that still kinda hurts to hear.
Plus, your prospective digs don't make me feel any better. Granted I don't know these people, but anyone who lets you pay the rent in drugs seems very shady to me. I really just wish you would slow down with stuff like that. I know I sound like a broken record but I don't think you understand how devastated I would be if I lost you.
I know I can't wrap you in a little cocoon and tuck you away somewhere safe for the rest of your life. And I wouldn't try to.
I just want you to be safe and happy, hun. That's all.
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| I can tell by the moon in your eyes that you're loved by the tribe, You're the right one baby... | 2008-06-16 03:13:01 ET |
Before I start, two quotes:
"Lemmy invented metal. Then he invented god and then devil and then he ate them" -- deciBel magazine.
"I was using a brand of disposable razor I don't usually use, and it had anal with my face. I was like, 'Wait, anal?' But by then I was done shaving" -- Josh Homme on a recent shaving experience.
So yeah. Hilarity.
I gotta say the new season of Venture Bros. is pretty epic. Maybe its just the giddiness and excitement of having a new season, but the new episodes are actually an improvement. My only qualm is with some of the voice acting. Some of the characters who usually only have two or three lines in old episodes are now the main focus of some of the new ones. And, maybe its just me, Pete's accent sorta faded after awhile. Likewise for some other characters. They sorta lose their defining qualities when used for too long. Just my two cents.
That and Doc Hammer, brilliant and snappy a dresser as he is, isn't that great of a voice actor. That or its just the shock of hearing him voice more of the background characters this time around. I ono.
By the by, did I mention I met Dave Wyndorf of Monster Magnet?
Yeah. I did.
He came into the store today, and I thought it was him, but I wasn't sure. So I looked at the credit card receipt and sure enough, it has his name on it. I asked him if he was who I though he was, which he joked was Stephen King. He admitted he was inded The Man. After I gushed a bit, we chatted about comics for a little bit, then I asked if I could impose an autograph, to which he obliged.
I gotta say he was really nice. Pretty humble (for what their image implies) and quite amusing (He was envious of my meatball sub. Apparently Taco Bell isn't his first choice. And he jokingly tried to both "steal" and trade with me.) He also complimented me on my Mastodon shirt. A pretty stand-up guy, all things considered.
He did reveal that he's not interested in touring anymore, or at least for the time being. Which made me sad. So many guys I've never had the chance to see (Danzig, Deicide, Kyuss, The Obsessed, and now Monster Magnet) are either broken up or not touring anymore. It makes me sad.
But hey. I sympathize with guys who have been doing this shit for 10, 20 years and don't really have a whole lot to show for it. I mean, I think a lot of these guys are, at most, fucking legends and, at least, really cool guys who make cool music. But legend status does not a comfortable living make. Plus he overdosed a year or so ago and he said it was hell. Funny thing is, apparently it was on legal/prescription stuff.
But what can you do? Regardless I wish him the best.
In another story...
To someone special (you know who you are):
I love you with every fiber of my being. The mere thought of living life without you makes me ache down to my core. I couldn't stand never being able to hold you in my arms again. I'd still climb that tower if you were as bald as Patrick Stewart. ;)
But there are some things you need to do for me, as well. Just a few. Probably three at the most. I think you may know what some of them are already.
Don't worry. Its not like I'd dump you for them, but I believe our relationship would improve tremendously (not that it isn't already great :]) if these things came to pass. And I'm not rushing you. I'd rather you do things at your own pace, so that you're comfortable.
I know you're in a rough patch right now but as they say, "Its always darkest before dawn". We'll get through this, baby girl. We've gotten through a lot of stuff.
But I love you, hunny bunny. I always will.
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