2002-06-19 22:53:04 ET|
So youíll say life goes on, ... which oneís? Iíd say.
Obviously every life has to ďgo onĒ. If it wasnít going on it would be death and thus it wouldnít be life. But then why am I asking which life? Because human life has reached a level of subjectivity in which itís hard to create psychological laws that should apply for everyone. I donít believe some of those laws are being applied on me as well as on others, either because Iím clinically insane or because Iím another forgotten sad romantic philosopher.
Today, I went to buy a cd, which I liked a lot, then started to keep drawing in something I havenít finished with the music. Oh yes... I always draw while listening music. I lose concentration or bore myself too quick if Iím not listening music while drawing. I tried to practice some notes for the violin and I realized, again, that I suck for that. I only have like 3 months with it but I know I suck. I wanted to try it for many many reasons, one of them was simply because I like the sound of it.
I just wonder if someday I will ever feel loved.