Useless.

Malkavian 2004-01-23 21:12:02 ET Pathetic... I’m a living thesis of this subject. Somebody kill me, I don’t care. Drowning in a storm of ideas... all intellectual, all mind, art or science, everything it’s my mind, they all soak me, suffocating, I’ll never be able to be more... more, accepted? Or me more flexible? I hate, or I dislike. I’m rejected or I’m put apart. It’s always the same, always, I’m alone, always, ...will always be...? not fair? Not good? My fault? I wished I were... more... or less... I don’t know, I just know I’m futile, unworthy, senseless, I ...simply, shouldn’t be, ...exist? Lame, woe is me, pathetic, whatever, I’ve lost the will... for so many things, what’s a will without a reason?

CaterpillarGirl 2004-01-24 00:30:24 ET You're not useless, you're brilliant. You're far too hard on yourself. Shit, I wish I could always be intelligent. You're not pathetic. You exceed about 95% of the population. Savvy? ;]

bane 2004-01-24 08:43:42 ET hun take a deep breath. and let it out. and if you think to much is happening at once. you should take a break. maybe take a semester away from school.

BloodyKissesRust 2004-01-24 10:26:49 ET I know how you feel - plus some.

Malkavian 2004-01-24 20:36:12 ET Thanks. Yet, sometimes I don't know how to call something such as "selfsteem" when there's not way to measure mine. I feel hipocrite when often I have fake emotions infront of others just to look 'natural'. Probably here, is the very only place where I post what's in my mind. Thanks, you all seem very nice too me.

CaterpillarGirl 2004-01-24 20:50:26 ET Im not nice. Im honest.

bane 2004-01-25 18:57:59 ET ditto.

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