Don't bother to hear the same old shit.
2004-07-17 20:56:25 ET

Itís 1 a.m. I did try to go to bed at 11:45 pm but I spent more than none hour in bed trying to sleep and I couldnít. Once I start I rhythm of going to bed late and waking up late too I canít seem to break it. Damn.
Yet since 5 days ago Iíve been still thinking on the last subject of the last journal entry; I still think of it every night suffering about it.
Fuck, I donít pretend to sound desperately ridiculous but I do think of not wanting to live anymore, having that idea at least 5 or 6 times a week. I donít know why even Iím writing the same crapped tales of my life in every journal entry. I must sound really retarded always sounding so pathetically depressed all over; maybe I do need to be interned or jailed somewhere. I wish I could say something nice... but I donít know the language for such description.

2004-07-17 21:54:37 ET


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