2004-07-24 22:33:38 ET|
Heh... I constantly get sad or depressed, thatís an easy thing to do with the life I have, but at least today something felt nice, which was having a hell of s rainy storm at 6 pm, I wish there could be a whole 365-day year of cloudy days in a row thatíd be nice.
I received an email about some girl who happened to see some of my drawings in this subcultures.net gallery and asked about how I did them. Well, I havenít dedicate enough time lately to drawing, but I did told her how I usually draw. Plus some documental videos Iíve seen lately on TV about some painters and some mysteries about DaVinci have made me starve fro drawing again, but I canít seem to find the proper inspiration when Iím sitting on the desk trying to draw something... I get too distracted.
Iíll found another page for music harmony, and another for counterpoint, Iíll be damn trying to read as much as I can understand to keep ďcomposingĒ some midis; I can see totally see why it really takes of a whole career to be a composer, Iím blowing my brains out trying to make a simple Fugue and I hardly got to make a short Cannon, whatever, Iíll try to keep doing something whenever I find myself inspired.
So many times I have a lot of shit I feel like posting here but I end either forgetting it donít knowing to say it. I canít be a poet, but damn I always have a tormented mind. Itís all about mentality. I canít be a poet but a mediocre philosopher through the way of arts.