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2005-05-01 19:36:34 ET I hadn’t posted here since too long, I guess because of the same shit, I’m either tired, I don’t know what to write about, I’m even pathetic writing my stuff, etc. Whatever, I’m not very sure how I’m doing at school. In some subjects I’m doing horribly bad, in others just not so much. Finally I started drawing again. Last week I started emailing a girl who also plays violin and used to be in the same amateur orchestra thing I’m in until she realized how horribly fucked up things are here, about two years ago. I stared contacting her for asking other options to study violin in other places too, since she’s now with a pro in particular classes. I don’t have enough money to have particular classes because for much I like to play I’d be reduce to consider it just a hobby, fuck. I do wish I could some day play professionally in one orchestra. So, as I was saying, this girl seems to have some interest in gothic stuff too, so I asked her a photo to draw her and she agreed, thus I made a drawing of her. I didn’t end up really like I expected but she said it was nice. [studies, her, her hand] Yesterday, some guys from the young orchestra invited me to go play soccer with them. The Result: Worst Idea EVER! I had like 5 or 6 years without doing anything of sport or physical activities, I didn’t lest but 10 minutes and I was almost dead, I had huge troubles breathing. I’m such a sag of shit, I’m totally incapacitated for sports activities. That was just plain stupid. Me and my retarded idea of trying to be nice and socialize with these kids, fuck, was that really stupid, I fucking hate myself. Well, maybe next weekend I get to ‘socialize’ but now with guys from school who at least are my age, and by socialize I only mean to hear some noisy music and get drunk. Oh Ave Satani. |
