2002-07-29 21:18:14 ET|
Itís been a long time since I didnít come on to check subkulures.net because I didnít have the time or wasnít available to use the computer. Many things have happened to me, in here, in Dallas TX, Öthings really hard to feel comfortable to talk about.
Like a week ago, we (and by saying we I mean me and another family and the kids in which Iím staying with) went to Six Flags, and I must say I didnít enjoy it at all, definitely I couldnít stand being with such a family hood, such the kids-parents thing, ah! It was horrible, for me. Days were passing by and I hadnít started to paint something, like I was supposed to be doing there, that was why I was invited! Damn! We (yes, again) had been going to the building (where Iím supposed to paint) only to CLEAN! Yes, clean, clean all the dirt and mess. So, days had passed I and I couldnít have the time to either paint or connect to here (subkultures.net), we were just hanging around more hostile (for me) family-type places and going to bunch of their cousinsí and unclesí/auntsí houses Öcould you imagine me there mentally alone, with no one with a particular interest to talk too? Yes, I faked a lot of smiles and laughers to themÖ I think the few sincere smiles I gave was by staring at one of their cousins, a little cute 10 year-old girl. She was very sweet, nice and did have a kind smile; she was very pretty in deed.
Moreover, I finally got to paint something. They selected an image from a National Geographic magazine for me o paint. I went with them to buy the paints and FINALLY started to paint; and as I must say, it is being a mess right now! I donít know how will it look when I finish it, but for now Iím not happy at all with what Iíve done about it. I suck. This is the second time I use colors but this time it isnít anything gothic-akin neither itís something small, as I said before (I think) it is on a wall, yes, like a short mural or something, so itís like 10 times bigger the painting at oils I did before; and this time Iím using acrylic paints now, I donít know why, someone suggested it to me and I just grabbed them when shopping the material for it. Another thing is Iím not sure I chose the right pencils, and the paint dries o fast, is not the same as with oils, besidesÖ it is the second time in my life I use paint!
Well, this I wrote was just like a very quick resume of what Iíve done or feel in the absent time in here. But still I will write much more about what happened today, yeh, nothing written here describes what I did or felt today, itís just that Ömmh, maybe later, I donít have much time yet to feel free for checking out the internet and subcultures as I wish to. Farewell.