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2002-10-26 19:48:43 ET Today Saturday, I went to my violin classes at morning: finally our teacher Susy came back from their touring thingy, that was a relief! With her it all is better, just the last Saturday we had this woman who was such a lame, and today when we had Susy I felt so good because she does put attention to us AND shoe does explain us things we should do right, oh, it’s nice having her back in deed. Besides she’s the only one that dresses so good, heheh. Well, well, I finally started downloading again some metal songs, and I can say that Tristania seems to be a next option to buy an album, and I’ve also been listening to other songs really great, but I won’t talk too much a bout it because then, uhm, people might not like my music..., fucking fuck, whatever. Anyways, I’m not sure what to draw now, due to a friend wants me to paint something for him; he only told to paint a little girl, but he didn’t mention many details... I NEED details, or I’ll just come up with something wrong perhaps. On other side, I don’t know if say this or not. Well, the issue about the girl I started to like and gave her a draw, she emailed me back again. I’m feeling really strange... I... know where to find her... but... I’m such a fucking shy guy, I’ll die, well lately I’ve been surrounding the place where she takes the bus just to see if by chance I may see her from far sight, but I haven’t had any luck, and I’m just afraid as hell, I’m really starting to think I’ll die empty, I don’t know, I ... oh fuck. Uhm, finally it stopped raining, damn I liked it so much, I’ve always thought of how would I like to die, this subject I’ve had it since I was 13, and thinking it really deep, and still don’t know how, but sometimes life just seems too cruel for dieing with even more pain, I think I prefer a really painless death, but not sure of when, but I do would like it to be a cloudy day or rainy. Like my heart. |
