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2002-10-30 12:06:13 ET Yesterday I had one really weird day, not because it had been strange but because I felt weird. All day I felt so fucking empty, maybe still; I haven’t been feeling to well like for cheering up at any shit, it’s… eh, it’s not the common whining or complaints of feeling unloved, alone or misunderstood, it’s been different, it’s like uhm if I don’t feel any courage to do anything, but more than apathy, I felt yesterday really misplaced, like everywhere I went I feel like if I was completely different to any human, I felt like if they weren’t real, I didn’t know for a moment if all the people were just part of the reality’s layout and I was the watcher, I felt really strange. Whatever so, I also think I saw from very far sight the girl I draw, which really got me afraid of coming there to see if really was she or not, I think it was her, but I was so afraid get closer that she might recognize and don’t know what to do, then, when finally I decided to get a bit closer, she left the place and I was got really stoned because I think it was her, and yet I know where to find her but I’m afraid to meet her, I… I’m not good at this, I’m stupid crap, am I shy? Why, apparently I am. But… I… don’t know what to do, I better should be locked up in a closet or something. Then, again, the feeling of the first paragraph come right now and it will get worse, I know. |
