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2002-10-31 21:37:05 ET So, as I said in the twp previous journal entries, I’ve been feeling very strange, I guess my inner malkavian feelings are back, or is it because I have been watching many thing, observing distinct behaviors, like studying the gnostic nature again and my own epistemology. I’ve taken ideas from others that also inspires my or just guide me next idea. Though I am just feeling like not wanting to care about my life, like crawling instead of walking for fear to fall down, like TeRRoR said, “walking wounded”, perhaps not for many but for me it is an interesting metaphor. I was also thinking from the last post, of how shy am I of confronting someone in person about something I might not know how to handle, but when writing it is different, it’s easier, and yet thinking is even easier. The example of this is when it comes like this: I’m about to do something but then I don’t do it for fear; then I write it (here) asking myself why didn’t I or why did I do that; even yet then after writing, a whole bunch of ideas come to my mind analyzing the whole situation in so many forms that I always forget when trying to write them down. It is really strange sometimes. I don’t know. I’ll go now to sleep. |
