2003-05-04 20:49:34 ET

today has been a shitty fucking day, nothing i say seems to come out right and i'm giving up on explaining myself, i don't care if i'm ever heard again, i want to just disappear from life. i want to just go missing for a few days, this reality has succeeded in pissing me the fuck off. i never get this stressed, but for some reason today i just can't shake it. i feel totally tapped out, i just worked 36 hours in the last three days. i sound like a fucking whiny 8 year old. wah wah wah....christ i want to kick my own ass...

whats the point of all of this anger and frustration. how useless of a gesture to make toward this existance. Like if i shake my fist at the sky enough some fucks going to magic a god up there to feel threatened. What happened to all the great thinkers...why don't we have an albert einstien right now, wheres the nobel prizing winning minds...its all just entropy taking over, where all leveling off from our different culutures, and our great and horrible and small and open and shut minds, were all settling into the land of mediocracy, where theres a starbucks and a mcdonalds on every street corner and no matter how far you drive you can always fill up in a gas station that looks just like the last....

i blame the motherfucking industrial revolution, its the reason for the bugle in the population, its responsible for the ability to feed the now parasitical human race, its golden children/inventions make our clothes, harvest our grain, and cart our asses around...

The america i see is nothing more than cracked asphalt, broken curbs, and 9 year old pizza huts. There is no humanity to existance anymore, this is no longer a human world. We've become something else entirely....


2003-05-11 05:27:31 ET

have we turned into helpless grubs perhaps?

2003-05-11 06:07:33 ET

something grubular...

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