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2002-08-10 19:55:33 ET Its wierd not waking up to a kiss from AJ. Not hanging out with him. Not having him hold me while we are watching TV or smoking a cigaratte under the stars. No wrestling with each other. I miss it all. Its soo odd not to be with him right now. I just want to go back home (his house). He called tonite and we talked about alot of stuff. I cried because I miss him so much. I don't like to be at my house anymore. I get treated like shit. I want to be with my AJ right now. I want sit up til 3am talking to him about how they make Dip n Dots ice cream, or how we are really upside down. I want to have him tuck me in and kiss me good nite. I want him to wake me up with a kiss in the morning and make ma poptarts for breakfest. I want his touch. I want to be with him now. But I can't . Because hes in Hyndman, PA...and......I'm all the way down in Mt.Savage MD. Its not that far apart. But its too far for me. I actully need him. I actully need someone in my life. I don't feel complete, here, by myself. I feel empty when I'm away from him. I'm empty. I need his kiss goodnite to make my emptyness stop. |
