2004-10-04 09:46:21 ET|
So, it's been almost 2 years since I graduated from college. My old roommate still knows my daily routine like the back of her own hand. My best friend has moved to Germany. I'm still dating the guy I dated in college (happily so, might I add). I've a good job and decent financial situation (I use "decent" very losely.) Still, I'm a bit disturbed. After a conversation with my loving boyfriend on Saturday night I realized that I remeber very little of my college experience. This is not due to the fact that each day was spent in a drunken stupor either. I just seriously don't remember hardly a thing that happened to me. I remember going there and bits and pieces...but important things that I was apparently there for and took part in and some of them that I'm told even centered around me, I just don't remember. I told my old roommate that it's like looking at a checkerboard. There are so many black spots where memories should be. I swear they were there like a week ago. The boyfriend keeps telling me that I'm trying too hard and that the memories _are_ there, I just need to have them sparked. I'm utterly befuddled as to why I can't remember anything. It's very strange, confusing and scary. I'm not sure what to make of the whole thing. There are stories that people tell me that I'm like...ya that happened. I know it did. But I can't conjure up a mental picture for anything. I just don't get it. Anyone got any ideas?
On a completely different note: Got left this lovely text message from the man today: "have a good day honey, and I'll meet you further on up the road."
He's so rad.
And the apparent quote of the day is:
"dearly beloved are you listening?
I cant remember a word that you were saying
Are we demented or are we disturbed?
The space that's in between insane and insecure
Oh therapy, can you please fill the void?
Am I retarded or am I just overjoyed
Nobody's perfect and I stand accused
For lack of a better word, and that's my best excuse" ~ Greenday