2005-01-29 20:27:16 ET|
Spoke to my mum today. She is still really out of it. She told me that in 2 months time they would have been married 25 years.A quarter of a century. I always wonder what that would be like, being with someone for 25 years plus, when my lonegest relationship was four and a half years long?!The thought boggles me at times.
Since my family is not the church going type. My family decided to have a wake at their house for my dad.She decided on using tea candles, for everyone that attends. And special ones for each family member, including the doggies. She knew that I have no way to get there and understands that:(, same goes for my brother in Texas. But my brother John in Texas is going to transport dad's ashes back to England. I guess it is his form of closure.
I asked my mum if I could have something small of my stepfathers to keep with me,nothing big, just something small for luck. I did the same thing when my real father passed. I keep his old dog tags with me all the time. More of a respect thing.
If you think about it for a bit. You could go at any time. Be snuffed out of existance in the wink of an eye!Be a cosmic splat on some demi-god's sandal. Or a stain somewhere on the horizon. Just think.....