Eh!

Skav 2006-01-27 07:58:51 ET Friday today. Not much going on. Roomies at work, then to the airport, and onto Cali(* So jonesing for Del Taco or Weinerschnitsel!). I wish him a safe journey. Been in one of those funk moods for months now.I guess you could call it depression. It's not a sad depression nor one of anger. Just a depressions that makes you feel numb,cynical and just...Eh! Where food, and beverage and just about most things sound good. But when it comes down to it, it just isn't. Maybe it's stress looking for a job, so I can get bills paid, work more on the house, and maybe. Just maybe have a couple extra bucks left over to buy myself something small. Maybe I am stuck on the fact, that my birthday is in 12 days. And I know, it'll be like the last five or so...Alone! Working and alone. I really don't want to be more of a recluse than I already am! Just seems to be working out that way! Another factor is this equation is being single. Today is 1 year and 52 days. Second longest jaunt without a significant someone in my life. And getting the occasional jab to the ribs from my last ex on myspace.com, really doesn't help matters much! I should just break down and get a mail order bride or something. The thought has crossed my mind from time to time! Better go get lunch and some medication. So I get rid of this flu I've had for 3 weeks.

Gage 2006-01-27 09:00:48 ET Cheer up bro I'll bring ye back a triple chili special from the Schnitz

excessivenoise 2006-01-27 09:03:02 ET No mail order brides for you! One of these days someone is going to realize just how wonderful you are and she won't let you go (She just better realize she better treat you good or else) You know I am saying this from personnel experiance, so just give it time sweetheart and don't give up.

innerbeauty 2006-01-27 09:53:25 ET *hugs* Cheer up! Maybe this will help: If, in your searchings, you come across any decent mail order grooms, let me know.

northern lights 2006-01-27 10:40:31 ET I have a friend who almost told me the same story 2 days ago, he is a tattoo artist and is covered from head to toe. His GF left him almost two years ago. He chooses not celebrate his birthday and works like a dog. Not only did he get the flu but ended up with pnuemonia for acouple of months, DAMN that depression must be going around. If you do get a mail order bride I hope it works out, another crazy male friend who runs ncmu.com, check it out ;had a mail order bride from russia, they live in San Francisco and been married for 4 years now and are happy clams. I think I was just writing to say you are not alone, even if it feels like it , I hope you find something or someone or yourself to make ya more happy.

Skav 2006-01-27 14:16:41 ET *Points to the kitty above. My kitty is still at my friends house. Going to get the door on the basement this weekend, so he can come home! The cat can go anywhere desires(all 4700 sq ft), except the dank and nasty basement! Am thinking of getting another cat to keep him company, since he's grown close to my friends cat. A girl kitty of course:P And a dog too! Have plenty of room in the house, and a 1/4 acre of yard space for the dog to frolic in! Ever feel as if, you can't relate to anyone or anything at times? I guess that why, when I'm depressed or bummed, I purposely work alot so I don't have to dwell, or think about anything. Except for what I'm working on! Been doing that for years. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't! That and I catch myself stuttering abit now and again, just so much in my head, in my thoughts and ideas. All those things trying to get out at once. One reason I always carry a sketch book and notepad with me. Just in case some of that excess thinking decides to ooze outta my noggin!

innerbeauty 2006-01-27 15:35:38 ET Aww! Yes, keep him out of the basement. And get him a friend! AND A DOG! It'll be great. (My cats and dogs own me...) I feel like that all the time. And I do that too, work and work and work so I don't have time to think. I find it works about 75% of the time, depending on what I'm working on.

Skav 2006-01-27 20:02:05 ET Exactly! It helps sometimes. But not always. Where's that acme anvil when ya need dropped on your head?

innerbeauty 2006-01-27 20:05:07 ET I don't know, but I've wondered that myself.

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