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2006-03-18 12:36:31 ET Just woke up to a splitting headache!!!! Fucking missed work, slept thru both alarm clocks. Didn't have anything too drink last night. Besides a few sodas. Guess it was just my bodies way of saying your tired ,you stinking dolt!!! Last night while dialing out. It must of been the season or a full moon. Every loopy freak must have been answering their phone!!! While being monitored by the bigwigs. I had this one guy posed as his deceased wife!!! I know I have my weird and odd moments! Have a little more respect for the dead!!!! Would have had 6 transfers last night. But due to our dialer being faster than our work stations. A big friggin nil on my part. Did my secondary interview for the machinest position. I'm not the brightest star when it comes too math and measurements! But I made myself some flash cards, to practice with. Call it elementary but it worked like a charm!I spent 20 minutes prepping with a supervisor, prior to my walk thru the factory again. Met up with the day shift shop steward. Spent an hour measuring things. I spent the previous week, measuring 16ths, 32nds and 64ths, as well as 144ths. To my hapiness I was only tested on 16ths. My last measurement of the test was a sheared machine bolt. The bossman wanted the diameter of the bolt. Measured it. It was 5/16ths, But told him it was actually a 1/4 bolt. He looked at me, shook his head....And told me to go inside and let's get me a job:) Next week I have a physical and a drug not. Both which aren't a problem. While I slowly ween my way into my new position, I will still telemarket to try and earn some extra money to contnue working on the house!!!! I feel it in me, the thoughts and ideas bubbling daily about finishing my house! Been listening to one particular Vac track off of Church of Acid. It reminds me of how I have felt for quite awhile now! The track.."We have to see, we have to know." It has this haunting echoing reverb in the background that sounds like someone screaming in complete anguish! The feeling of someones inner self colapsing from exhaustion, dismay, self loathing, broken dreams and hopes. More over complete dispair of anything that may have been, or what may be!!! Imagine someone with so many thoughts and emotions of all sorts flowing all at once, that they completely implode!Sometimes while zoning at my current job waiting to receive a call. I try imagine what it would have been like, not to have experienced some of the things that I have(ie:not being there at all.).The majority of those thoughts and experiences, I know I could have done without. And then I take a step further and delve deeper, on how I would have turned out. Or would I have turned out at all? Stupid me and my fucking thought processes!!!! |
