2004-01-28 04:12:21 ET|
Still sorta sick.
Yesterday I started thinking about what I'm gonna do next year and started freaking out. I have no bloody idea.
I mean, right now, I'm doing this course and taking the psychometric exam on the first of April. With the results I can sign up for Uni in the next 7 years.
But after the first of April, I got no plans.
What do I wanna do next year..?
Maybe I wanna live it out another year..?
Get a job?
Move out of home?
Lottsa stuff I wanna do, and not a lot of time to be 23 (which is comin' up February).
A few of the major conflict points, I guess I'm gonna hafta sort out:
* The only option I got which doesn't necessitate getting a decent-paying job is signing up for Uni next year and staying at home, no trips abroad, do not pass go, do not collect 200 dollars.
* I want to go to Australia / New Zealand. For a couple of months maybe. I don't wanna do it alone (hopin Ariel will be up to it), and I need hella money to do it.. But it's my childhood, I gotta go back there someday, and nows as good a time as any (maybe I could loan money from my folks..hmm..)
* In the very least, I wanna go to Europe this summer. Seems everyone's goin to Czectech festival, and Prague is beautiful (and comparatively cheap, too).. But this also requires money.
* I may still have that job in Vancouver option next year. Something to keep in mind. I should probably ask around what's going on with that..
* I want to move out. I admit, I have it good at home. Real good. But I don't feel like I have my space. My room is the place I sleep in, nothing more. I want to have space to be creative in too. This requires even more money, and a constant flow of it too.
* I don't really want to get a job. It's a tough market out there too. Chances of getting into something that actually pays good is slim to none. I hate this.
* I feel like I'm (still) not doing what I really want to be doing. I want to sign up for a gym, and for an art class maybe. This too, requires time and money.
okay, end rant.
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