2002-11-08 08:10:03 ET|
"I'm afraid. I'm afraid, Dave. Dave, my mind is going. I can feel it. I can feel it. My mind is going. There is no question about it. I can feel it. I can feel it. I can feel it. I'm a...fraid. Good afternoon, gentlemen. I am a HAL 9000 computer. I became operational at the H.A.L. plant in Urbana, Illinois on the 12th of January 1992. My instructor was Mr. Langley, and he taught me to sing a song. If you'd like to hear it I can sing it for you."
Oh, fuck I'm going insane. Around 7:00 in the mornin' I started reading Preacher: Until the end of the world. Around 7:40 or so I was in the middle, I stopped, look around and thought to myself "Fuck, Shay, if you don't go to sleep now, you're never gonna wake up." I stood up, went to turn the light off (I keep the shades of windows constantly closed, so that with the lights off, and door closed, there is total darkness) and then I realized; Fuck. No way I'm falling asleep now. Too much energy. Went back to lay in my bed, opened the book, finished it by 8:10 or so, closed the light, and fell asleep around 9:00 in the morning.
Woke up in the afternoon by noise from the neighbours, but didn't actually leave the bed till 19:05.
This is totally fucked. I donno how to stop it. Maybe what I need to do is simply make a complete cycle. I think turning around my bio clock now would be more difficult than simply going to sleep later and later, and eventually it'll be that I go to sleep at night again.
Probably going to the Lilienblum 25 tonight, for some more watery-beer-n-EBM fun.
:: Listening to: Johann Bley - Stranded ::