I think.....
2002-04-21 18:02:15 ET

I think to myself much to often... I start thinking things that i shouldn't even be thinking of,things that do not make sense..I let my mind take over. I have the habit of doing that , specially when I'm in bed at night. I brought myself to the point where I feel as if i am loosing someone very close to me. I think about the little things and think ,maybe they are not occuring anymore because this person simply does not care.. about anything... about me.
Maybe... maybe love is lost...

I have to stop thinking like this ...


2002-04-21 18:11:26 ET

the japanese have a word for this...i can't remember what it was but it means "monkey mind" ...i think you have that...meditation: breathe in. breathe out. concentrate only on your breath. :-)

2002-04-21 18:15:24 ET

oh, and don't worry too much...it causes wrinkles...well, so does smiling...what was my point? oh, yeah smile wrinkles are far better then worry wrinkles anyday :-)

2002-04-21 18:30:26 ET

Yes smile wrinkles are better any day.....Don't worry so much it make me worry....damn now I'm worried....

2002-04-21 20:05:38 ET

I always have horrible problems sleeping cause my brain just won't shut up!

Maybe the little things aren't being done because its not new anymore- people often don't keep up some of the little things in the beginning after a while, not because they don't care, but because they've gotten so used to things being the way they are they no longer think about them...

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