Wasted Youth 2003-11-18 17:03:59 ET I THINK I AM FALLING INTO THE DEEP PITS OF DEPRESSION AGAIN. it always seems to come and go __ like that. and i am getting sick of it. i am sooo incredibly fukken lonely i wanna die. i dont kno how much onger i can put up with being alone i am sick of crying all the time and craving any sort of affection...why is it that i repel ppl...i mean i need to be analyzed or something...i see these guys totally into me, and they get all giggly and i catch them looking at me. and then all of a sudden it just stops. i have been alone for soo long and i think there are possibilitys. and it just vanishes. why??? anyways make them bleed. my eyes that is. gooodnight all.

TheKilted 2003-11-18 17:05:22 ET *hugs* I'm sorry.....want some of my soda?

Mark My Words 2003-11-18 17:15:19 ET I hear ya Luv. I was diagnosed with biological depression last November, and I know all about the "it comes and goes" feeling. I think I'm past it (knock on wood), but before it was so discouraging because you'd feel really good for a long while and then it was back to feeling like hell. ...sorry... I'm ranting. As for guys and attraction, I'm sorry. Not to sounds trite or anything, but I do the same thing.

Wasted Youth 2003-11-18 17:29:41 ET mmmm soda pop. awww mark i miss you. yeh i just nate that there are no good pshycologists up here that i can talk to . i mean there was one good onw and she moved ...and my mom just thinks i am in self pity. but i mean wtf. yeh it also conjoins with the whole S.A.D. thats come with the surrounding this winter. bleh i dunno ....i just think i shud go cut something.

Mark My Words 2003-11-18 17:36:01 ET I missed conversing on here while I was away too. And as for your mom, that really sucks. Have you talked to her about it? what is S.A.D.? And no cutting. Drink soda pop.

Wasted Youth 2003-11-18 23:18:03 ET S.A.D = Seasonal Affective Disorder. its more common in the north . it when you dont get enuff sunlight and get all dpressed and into into "hibernationn" state of lmind. i.e sleeping ALOT, eating ALOT, staying in your house and not doing much. some people get it really really bad. alot of people get light therapy for it http://www.lighttherapyproducts.com/articles.html there offer it here i think i may go this winter. but i dunno....i just dont really have the time. meh. oh but breaking and banging and cutting things are theraputic for me. altho i ruin some good things sometimes out of RAGE!!!!! |SHAKES FIST| no hun like i said before i will be fine. it always passes...or goes back into the pit. g'night. lubb!!!!!!

Mark My Words 2003-11-19 12:33:51 ET Good evening hun! I know it will pass, but I'm worried about it re-occuring.

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