ok this is all too fukked up.
2004-04-11 13:03:49 ET

talk about weird.

the boi last night approached me, and was all like, ok seriously whut the fukk is going on, i didn't even kno how to react or whut to say.

i didn't even hear the things he said, i was drunk and confused, anyways whut he basically said, was he didnt kno whut the fukk was goin on, and just as i was about to answer him, all his bois came out and were like, lets go inside, he was like no dood chill i am talking here.

so we didnt really talk before more people came out, and of course just as we were getting somewhere it all got interuppted, and he wanted to leave with me, but his bois were like no dood your staying, anyways he went back and forth and finally came with me, then asked why i was mad that he was with some girl the other night, and started stroking my hair and holding my hand, i wanted to push him away and yell at him and tell him that i wont be his fallback girl, or ask him whut it is he wants, if its me as his girlfriend and bitches on the side , thats fukked and so not him,

gah just as we were getting somewhere, he even brought up 2 weeks ago, so its obviously not only bothering me, and i am even more confused now.

i am goin to kill mysef this is too much stress, we need to talk.


2004-04-11 13:17:01 ET

ya...It sounds like you need to talk...why don't you try calling him and then maybe go for coffee or for a walk so that you guys can talk about the shit you need to get out...

2004-04-11 13:18:34 ET

that seems so simple doesn't it.

but unfortunately, we are both big losers, who hate confrontation, and i kno that if we start we will go for hours and get everything off our chest and feel so much better,its just that first bigf step that seems so unreachable.

2004-04-11 13:20:11 ET

I know exactly what you mean...it is so much easier to give advise then take it...

2004-04-11 13:31:13 ET

oh god, something has to be done, or we will both go insane.

2004-04-11 13:35:29 ET

I know what you mean...and I would probably be doing the same thing as you are now...*gives you a HUGE hug*...what ever you decide to do about it...good luck!

2004-04-11 13:36:01 ET

thanx hun.

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