2002-05-19 23:13:56 ET|
hmmmm, i just realized that i really dont like being alone anymore.
tis funnny that it has taken me a year to firgure this out, all this time i have been fooling myself into think i can go on with no contact or socialization with anyone or anything.
but i did get momentary thoughts that i would just make them fade away, its a bit much to handle right now, and i am actually getting really depressed at the fact that i have broken down.
i have failed myself,there is no exscuse for this. i am weak, but whut the fukk am i supposed to do with this new epihany???? its not like i can go out and fix it all in a day.
i need to melt the puddles.