2004-06-04 09:41:35 ET
amanda: thx alot. you are right. she doesnt deserve me if she treated me like that. i am a nice person and people like me, so i know that i will find someone new, but i need to wait to find the right one. i felt that i was worth time before she left than she came back and i asked her," so, were did you sleep when you were there?" she said with a smile on her face," in his bed."
i asked," did you sleep with him?" she said," yes." then i asked," did you have sex with him?" and she said," yes."
this is what hurt, but i know i wasnt my fault. it was hers and i know that i was a good boyfriend to her so i know that i was her not ME.
Oh i never thought this would happen to me at all. i had a gut feeling that this was happening, but i never thought this would happen. i trusted her and she did this well aware that i was at home waiting and at home was the boy that cares and matters. i thought. life is like a box of chocolates, you'll never know what your going to get.
yes, sorry for making it out to piss you off. that wasnt my intention.
yes i did cry, alot. it did help but drugs help more. my friends are a good medicine too.
Jackie: i will.