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2005-06-22 21:00:36 ET I really need a new job. I feel like I am whining but eight to ten hours a day, working out side painting rich people's houses is really hard work. Not to mention the fact that I am allergic to latex, the base for the paint I am elbows deep in every day. I have been told by a lady I respect who has similar health issues as I (food intolerences.. etc..) that women need more rest than men and that particularly with my system, I need alot of rest. This feels like just bailing out because I am finding it difficult. The stubborn side of me wants to pull my act together and just work harder. The warning in my head tells me that I am getting sicker with the constant exposure to the latex. There is also the added unhappiness in being around David too much. I think that not only would it be healthy for me to find a job that isn't straining me physically but also a needed seperation from my fiance so that I am happy to see him instead of focused on what I have to do and annoyed at him. For the past two days working with him has been tolerable because we stay on seperate sides of the house. I have the next few days off in order to attend another pagent. I am not sure why I love my sister this much, but I endure pagent after pagent in order to show her support for a competion I could never put myself through. well I am not burl enough to paint houses daily and I cannot be fluffy enough to deal with competing in beauty pagents. Guess I am just a normal average girl. |
