2006-11-28 16:05:05 ET
breaathe val. here goes.
this is not as easy as i thought it was going to be.
nothing is fixable with any ex. what's done is done, i learned. every man i have cared for does have admirable attributes, but not the entire package. something was always missing. maybe my fault, maybe theirs; no ones. hence, we remain friends due to the respect, attitude, and fact that a relationship was built with friendship first. take lust out of the picture, that's what's left. and i honestly didn't notice they were all my exes, until someone (who's known me for YEARS) commented about the company i was keeping that evening.
the ones that were trying to make me cry, or hurt, or pine away for just them the rest of my life; those ones get to see my happy little ass skip off with a smile. i will never let a man do that to me; BEEN THERE DONE THAT. i'm not jaded, i do put my heart into it, left to dangle, but i refuse to let it be sharkbait.
and lastly, some of these 'conquests' never even got a kiss, a second date, and even fewer get the 'cash and prizes.'
i don't want my pathetic love life to make me cry. the fact that i am alone, doesn't bother me, i like me. but i am somewhat lonely. so i use terms such as "flavor of the week' to lighten an actual depressing subject. a different way of putting a sad truth. thanx for the salt.
and those who judge me for it can go to hell. i only explain my self to those whose opinions actually matter to me; JEFF.