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2003-04-11 12:22:40 ET Today for the first time in life I felt Hate, True Hate, Pure Hate. My body surges with it and for the first time in my life I wish I was ignorant. I wish I lived in a world where people don't experience real Hate. I am not talking hate like when your boy friend cheats on you and you hate him. I am talking the Hate you Hate when someone has hurt you so bad that it wont ever leave and there is no justice. I now know the force that drives murderers. Because today for the first time in my life I really thought about killing someone not even killing them worse than that. I wanted to cause a pain so great it would never leave and then grant them immortality just so they have to feel this pain for ever. For the love of my husband and family I don't act on these urges, but they are there. Today I lost somethingI guess it could be called innocence but it seems so much more important. I changed today and I don't like it, you can see it in my eyes. I now know what pain can do to a person and I am now know what makes horrible monsters who they are. |
