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2004-04-13 18:29:55 ET oh man my day started out so good i was so looking forward to see a special someone but it just all turned to shit when i did see that someone. i was really hopeing that things would've been different this time i thought that i had acctually found a good one. He makes me laugh hes sweet he talks to me and he doesnt judge and hes just everything ive been looking for in a guy but it was just too good to be true.. so this is what happened friday night we hung out and i had already had feelings for him like i really liked him and stuff and i dunno we had connected before and stuff but not until fryday did i really start to see the way this person was starting to affect me. anyways we hung out and i really felt like something was there you know just by little things that i would notice like when he would kinna look from the corner of his eye or when he rested his head on my shoulder or even by the way that he hugged me or cracked jokes with me but i guess that it was just friend stuff but it really didnt seem that way but i dunno anyways today i was so excited that i was going to see him like thats why i woke up today to see him and today when i met up with some friends and he was there i was so looking forward to just seeing his smile and just hearing his voice but when i saw him walk up towards me he was hand in hand with another girl and my heart just dropped i wanted to run away and cry.... it just really hurt me to see him with her and i just couldnt take it i couldnt even look at them it hurt so much and what i really hate is that he knows that i like him and it would be so much better if he didnt cause then i might not act strange around him but i just like him so much it hurts and he was someone that i could really see my self falling for but i guess some things are just too good to be true and my friends were all trying to comfort me by saying that hes boring anyways but i just dont think that they know him like i do i dunno just something about him maybe its the way he talks to me or something but he just makes me feel like i can be myself around him and im not nervous at all when im around him and i dunno its just killing me inside...... |
