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2003-08-23 17:38:13 ET i realized how pethetic my life is at the moment today i went to a family thing today and when i left there i was going to in town and have a grand ole time the place i went to was closed, no friends there i went to the movies coz ashton tori and nathin were working when i go there my camera battries dies so no pics from there although i did get some good pics in town i hung out there for about 10 mins. and ened up going back to the fam thing i went to the cell phone to call nesa she wasnt home im soo down right now for a number of reasons i have nothig to do nowhere to go no friends to talk to no one to love no one to love me ive been lost not cared about knowing that it wont happen again what has become of me there is no more intrest in me there are better things to do screw this i really dont know why im here why has that happened i know she wanted it but i knew it was going to hurt me more than her let what happens happen im to nice to forgiving maybe this wasnt for me maybe i should go where we go is up to you because im to much of a pussy to why did it happen it makes me nothing but depressed like the life in me is gone it feels like i have no reason to live it was the life force in me but now its gone you know im still there but do you care? |
