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2005-02-27 18:37:19 ET why the hell does that happen i read something and then i become pissed off almost jelious i think its that she has something and i have nothing i just dont know how this is going to end up im still wishing for the best but inside i know it wont be happy in the end im still hoping i just dont know why i havent felt like this ever so strong about how i feel im not doubting my feelings on this and when i see J----- then i feel happy just a smile makes me feel better and a talk makes my day i just know its not going to happen but why the fuck do i continue to care? they say "things are going to change" i say "but not for the better" they say "yes, very much for the better" i laugh in doubt even when im gone my mind is still going to be here and i wont be able to stop it i just wish that this could have happened but im still hoping inside it wont leave me i cant stop it but the hope and expected dissapointment inside me are ripping eachother apart while im dying from the inside what am i to do wish on a shooting star continue to think "this is going to turn out right" when i know its not but i cant let myself think that this is killing me im still going to feel for this and know that im sure of how i feel no one will take that from me The moon is down and my love is running out but i have the hope there to guide me. |
