2005-04-11 16:38:18 ET|
....With all the traumas in my life at the moment, I'm debating weather or not to keep this account going. No one seems to show much interest in my ramblings, and most of those who seemed to care have left SK already....
....it just get's a little DRAINING to pour out your soul with no one even batting an eye in your direction...... I was invited here to Make friends, and it seems that it's really not happening, that you have to HAVE friends to get anyone to look at your page. Having none, It's only making it more obvious how pathetic I am writing these things with no one ever reading them.
I end with a poem. If there is anyone who would like me to stay, PLEASE let me know you're out there, that I'm not totally alone.
Attempt at Reconciliation Between Hopeless Romanticism and Cynasism
Feel the Heart which once beat in time with mine, and had such glorious love, turn to stone.
Reeling in Ghastly Horror as you witness the compassion and tenderness - that used to to be the greatest solice of your days and what life worth living - turn to cruelty, indifference and abuse.
Oh, how the starving in my Soul consumes me.
My feelings of Abandonment and Betrayal so great.