2006-02-14 10:30:28 ET|
This was transcribed onto computer sometime in early `98. I think it was written between 2-3 years prior to that. I just re-discovered it, and it seems fitting to my mood, right now.
THE RELIEF OF DARKNESS
I'm not sure how much longer I can keep it up.
It takes all of my strength to go on.
I try and make the best of things,
But the pain is becoming unbearable.
I have been all but stripped of my emotions,
It semms like all I feel is pain.
I feel so empty.
My heart and soul seem to be dying.
I can't take being alone anymore.
Death is calling to me like never before.
I see his dark shadow behimd me in the mirror,
I feel the ice water in my viens.
My heart has frozen over.
I reach for my razor,
Drag it down my wrists,
Feeling all of my suffering drain from my body,
Forming a pool at my feet.
Seeing the light turn to shadows,
Everything turns black,
The relief of darkness.