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2004-06-17 23:01:43 ET

So on a happy day I am jelous.
Yes I am just that selfious.
It is Adams B-day,and mostly I think of ugliness and how want a boyfriend.
I wish I was beautiful so badly it makes me cry.
And then *NICK* talks to his girlfriend on the phone(who should be me)
And Adam and Jessica have sex,and not the meaning less kind,
I just wanna cry
and have someone look at me that way
or in any way
And they ask me whats wrong
and I lie because I am not going to ruin Adams day
It does belong to him and then I just fell worse for lying to the ppl that love me most
But they can't know
They don't really understand
I say that alot
but its true
But I am unwanted
And It will stay that way
right now I feel like I will die alone
And it hurts so bad
Oh how I wish Jess and Adam were enough
But they aren't
I am so greedy
I don't know whats wrong with me
why am so evil


2004-06-18 00:31:33 ET

you know i think you are gourgeous, yeah, i really do understand what you are going through, and i wish i would have gotten on earlier so i could help you through this.. i do that, not say something to not ruin somebodies day, really a lot more than anybody ever knows, i know that you are feeling really horrid right now, but remember i love you, i know i havent been the greatest friend in the world to you, or well anybody for that matter, but i really truly want you to feel better

2004-06-20 08:39:21 ET


2004-06-20 11:03:22 ET

<3 one of the most beautiful people i know inside and out

2004-06-20 16:22:05 ET

Oh I don't derserve you

2004-06-20 16:34:59 ET

oh you do, but not me, you deserve better

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