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rckonbebe 2004-06-17 23:01:43 ET So on a happy day I am jelous. Yes I am just that selfious. It is Adams B-day,and mostly I think of ugliness and how want a boyfriend. I wish I was beautiful so badly it makes me cry. And then *NICK* talks to his girlfriend on the phone(who should be me) And Adam and Jessica have sex,and not the meaning less kind, I just wanna cry and have someone look at me that way or in any way And they ask me whats wrong and I lie because I am not going to ruin Adams day It does belong to him and then I just fell worse for lying to the ppl that love me most But they can't know They don't really understand I say that alot but its true But I am unwanted And It will stay that way * * * * right now I feel like I will die alone And it hurts so bad Oh how I wish Jess and Adam were enough But they aren't I am so greedy I don't know whats wrong with me why am so evil ************** HAPPY BIRTHDAY I *love* U !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Deftones R Us 2004-06-18 00:31:33 ET you know i think you are gourgeous, yeah, i really do understand what you are going through, and i wish i would have gotten on earlier so i could help you through this.. i do that, not say something to not ruin somebodies day, really a lot more than anybody ever knows, i know that you are feeling really horrid right now, but remember i love you, i know i havent been the greatest friend in the world to you, or well anybody for that matter, but i really truly want you to feel better

rckonbebe 2004-06-20 08:39:21 ET <3 ALLEN

Deftones R Us 2004-06-20 11:03:22 ET <3 one of the most beautiful people i know inside and out

rckonbebe 2004-06-20 16:22:05 ET Oh I don't derserve you

Deftones R Us 2004-06-20 16:34:59 ET oh you do, but not me, you deserve better

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