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rckonbebe 2004-06-26 23:44:06 ET I am at Jess's house. Yeah thats fun.My father is mad at me right now but really don't care. BC thats fun. Nichole' Bday today. thats fun every year I go and I love it. <3 NiKKi and Nichole. I really wish I had a boyfriend. But really don't see that happening ever. I went out of the house today with no make-up,and I saw ppl too! Usally when I don't wear make-up I am working. I am proud. MY EYEBROWS ARE GROWING BACK! Now they aren't all half, and gimpy like. Yay things are looking up. I am happy today. I love you.

CellarDoor 2004-06-26 23:59:54 ET Why do you wish you had a boyfriend?

rckonbebe 2004-06-27 00:02:34 ET Because I want that kind of effection.

rckonbebe 2004-06-27 00:02:45 ET And I am selfish.

CellarDoor 2004-06-27 00:03:37 ET And you aren't getting that now?

rckonbebe 2004-06-27 00:11:12 ET No, then thier would be no need for a boyfriend

rckonbebe 2004-06-27 00:11:21 ET :(

CellarDoor 2004-06-27 00:17:02 ET Well maybe you are recieving that kind of affection but it's just not as physical as you would like... I just have a hardtime admitting that I "need" something from a girl. I have a problem with the whole dependency thing... and it's weird but I'm kind of in the same predicament as you are... so I'm hoping I just get over it.

rckonbebe 2004-06-27 00:20:53 ET I am not though the only two ppl I am ever around are my best friends,and they are dating. I am too, I do that sometimes when I don't know what to make of my emotions,just wait until it passes. the waiting is the hardest part.

CellarDoor 2004-06-27 00:22:02 ET Yeah it is... it's a state of limbo where you are just stuck inbetween it all. I hate it.

rckonbebe 2004-06-27 00:29:57 ET emotions can really fuck a person up. Sometimes(rarly)I wish they weren't there but I rather be in pain than dead. Not that the lack of having a boyfriend is that depressing but I am confronted with that feeling all the time since that is all I am around. But Afterthe pataince it'll all be good.

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