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2005-10-30 18:27:45 ET The last few days have brought me round to that part of me that fears to drown that part of me that wants to fly that part of me that cannot die It wants to write and sing a song to all the bastards who've done him wrong to all the girls he's loved before a song to break down every door but where's the words that make this song that kill the darkness right the wrongs that lead me to the place to be that happy place inside of me the morning rays caress her face as shooting stars careen through space and promise something that cannot be seen cannot be felt cannot receive the hopes and fears we send from earth that contemplate our death and birth where do we go where'd we come from who put us here whyfore, howcome I'd like to say I can exorcise myself from myself dry my eyes and see myself for what I am and see that I am what I planned but I'm aware of what I've become and try my best to share with someone my hopes and dreams, my plans for me for her and us and you and me My plans, what were they did I have plans? Did I just say that and hoped I'd find them I remember talks of waves and oceans of sun and roads and forgetting all those things we kept behind ourselves and letting loose to someone else and driving wildly away from our lives forgetting the future, the past out of our minds the present only, the wind in her hair and the sun setting in front of our ray-banned eyewear When we got to the edge, though, what would happen? Would we return to our lives, enriched but the same? would these questions I have persist and remain? Here is an answer - the answer is out there. It doesn't come quickly and you often pass through it when on this road of life and you don't know you've seen it or what it quite was till you're through it and gone and your life has moved on. The road of this life needs a place to begin and it doesn't quite end and it doesn't quite bend. It just goes on straight through everything imaginable and the path may seem smooth or it may see unpassable then it is time to pull out these questions and see what you've passed through and if that will solve them. Your map is laid as you pass through it. Beginner's Cartography and she's the one who knew it so that's my thoughts as I sit here tonight contemplating tommorrow and the future beyond it. Don't know where I'm going but I look forward to it. |
