"I feel as if I'm looking at the world from the bottom of a well." - M. Doughty

the DE Rude Boy 2005-12-20 10:34:28 ET Another day wasted but I guess that's how it goes when you're just on this planet living and you hope your persistance shows persistance to keep working to keep breathing keep alive Hope that tommorrow something truly honest will shine. Shine on the shadow that I'm dwelling in and frees me from the madness my mind's caged within When there's no hope that life will get better any day and no light at the end of the tunnel what's the point of going on? Can anyone explain? I want my life to be better to be happy like it was I want to stop whining like I do and I want to rise above. Please lord, grant me patience and persistance to make it happen to make my life what I want it to be what she saw in me what He sees in me What it should be. "I wanna glide down over Mulholland I wanna write her name in the sky Gonna free fall out into nothin' Gonna leave this world for a while."

the DE Rude Boy 2005-12-21 13:35:33 ET poor me, poor me pour me another drink. *plays worlds smallest violin, just for me*

ShinyStar 2005-12-22 03:15:47 ET "My Reply" ~ The Ataris I got your letter and the poetry you sent me Postmarked in december of last year I really hope you're doing better All of your friends close by your side One step closer to recovery I wish there was something i could say To erase each and every page that you've been through Even though its not my place to save you I appreciate but can't accept this thank-you note Thats sealed with your last breath I won't stand aside and listen to you give up If you'll just hold on for one more second Just hold on to what you have If you'll just hold on, just hold on You will wake up tommorrow These arms remain stretched out to you Maybe someday you'll accept them Or maybe its too late to save a young girls heart that's long stopped beating Wake up, wake up you've gotta believe Wake up, wake up you cant give up Time keeps going on without us Long after we're dead and gone I wish there was something i could say To erase each and every page You've been through Even though its not my place to save you I appreciate but can't accept this thank-you note Thats sealed with your last breath I won't stand aside and listen to you give up If you'll just hold on for one more second Just hold on to what you have If you'll just hold on, just hold on You will wake up tommorrow

the DE Rude Boy 2005-12-22 03:43:39 ET Thoughts from Doughty - "Oh all the days That I have run I sought to lose that cloud that's blacking out the sun My train will come Some one day soon And when it comes I'll ride it bound from night to noon. I feel as if I'm looking at the world from the bottom of a well I feel as if I'm looking at the world from the bottom of a well Aimless days, Uncool ways Of decathecting Painless phase, Blacked out thoughts You be rejecting. Lonely And the only way to beat it is to bat it down And the only way to beat it is to bat it down And the only way to beat it is to bat it down beat it. Lonely And the only way to beat it is to bat it down And the only way to beat it is to bat it down beat it..." "I Hear The Bells Down in the canyon, it's Snow in New York Some blue December, I'm Gone to the moon Without you, girl, and I'm Calling to you Throughout the world and well I can Hear the bells are Ringing joyful and triumphant and I hear the bells They are like emeralds, and Glints in the night Commas and ampersands Your moony face So inaccessible Your inner mind so inexpressible and I can Hear the bells are Ringing joyful and triumphant and You snooze, you lose Well I have snost and lost I'm pushing through I'll disregard the cost I hear the bells So fascinating and I'll slug it out I'm sick of waiting"

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