what if this is as good as it gets?
2005-07-24 05:19:09 ET

I had a rather insightful and educational night out last night. We (Mayan, a friend from high school, Sarkis, another friend from high school, and I) crashed some random chica's quinceanera at some "chic" hotel, got into an Armo-style three-block-long car chase that lasted almost two hours, briefly attended some Bulgarian BBQ with some surfers hanging ten, then caught the last few moments of my friend's band's CD release party thingamabob. It was a very cultural and very murdercore night. I liked it.

Today, a couple of friends' bands are playing the SoCalFest. That should be somewhat fun (I'm only staying for their sets and that's it though). And tomorrow, one of my business associates flies back into town from Guatemala, so things should be rolling again and more money will be made...

But before that's even done, Mayan and I need to fly out to San Francisco. His "father", who's never ever called him up to even say hi before now, just had a stroke and he's paralyzed from the neck down. And of course, it took us three days for us to even find out which hospital he's at or anything because they're keeping this such a hush-hush thing from the media and all that eyerolling crap. Which is absolute bullshit on the keeping-it-that-much-of-a-secret-from-even-his-own-son sort of sense, but whatever. We're going up there in a few days and that's that.

Blah, blah, blah...

Yea, all in all, almost everything is still good. I don't know how comfortable I'll feel being there with Mayan and his family, but I know he needs a friend and he barely even knows anyone in that side of his bloodline anyhow...

(This is where I'd probably insert some stupidly pretentious quote about friendships and/or perseverance, but I've given up Googling up for one. So there. Bleh.)

This just seems to be what life is all about lately -- selfish selflessness, with never any time to actually step back and enjoy the moments while they last. Let it be happiness or sadness, all I'm ever doing is pulling through. In a way, it sucks, but in the long run, I think it'll be worth it. But what do I know.

Confucius say, "Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall."

Fitting, in a way. I think...

2005-07-31 07:08:31 ET

So it's not how you fall, but how you get up that matters.

2005-08-02 15:27:15 ET

That, too. And perhaps even when. Heh.

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