| it all happned last night | 2004-03-25 12:48:01 ET |
ok so i go to the bar, and see the boi. and i was kinda scared to see him.
i sit down beside him, he has this huge grin on his face. and i get all close to his face and smile.
funny how everything we go thru and i get all upset and drive myself crazee. and then when we see each other we forget everything and all is back to normal.
but it still wasn't, i felt like crying and pouring my heart out to him. but i look across the table and guess whut. the dammdest thing. BOY # 2 IS THERE.
oh shit i think whut now.
so boy #2 starts to leave whilist saying. uhhh i'll leave you two alone. NO NO NO!!!! i said
its all wrong he has it all wrong. and the thing is whenever he see's us around each other he is always worried and thinks something is goin on, and doesnt want to pursue me.
anyways yeh so i told boi i needed to talk to him about all the shit that has been goin on and all the rumors and such, and he see's how upset i am, and is like ok well lets go talk, i tell him that its not something i can say in 5 mins, or a sentence or anything. and he gets all mad like just fukken say it, whut do you have to say.
i tell him we will talk and not to worry. so all goes well and boy #2 leaves cuz he has a ride or something. he looked like he felt kinda awkward. so i am like no no dont leave, he says i'll see you tomorrow, gimmie a hug. i did and it felt so warm and inviting.
anyways i sit and drink still feeling uneasy.
and we leave go to my friends house, and boi takes me outside i kinda start to tell him shit, and he see's how upset i am and hugs me while i am soo about to cry, and bamm...everyone comes out on the porch, and he tells me he is sooo tired and too drunk, and says i gottah go to bed i'm sorry. i tell him we have to finish this shit, and ask him about tomorrow...and he's like well i am goin out with girl _____ (#2) hahaha he now has a #2 and i tell him i am goin out with boi #2 and he tells me to just relax and stop worrying and dont take shit so seriously.
he always tells me this he knows me all too well.
and i look at him. i look thru him and he does to me. and we hug for like 3 mins. i think thats said more than any words can say.
this is all sooo fukked up.
but anyways i am hanging out with boi #2 today, and tomorrow.
<3
holy shit how dramatic.
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