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2006-07-11 16:53:07 ET I got the job at Rock Candy, I start on thursday. Bryson left for Ottawa today, I'm relaly upset he keeps leaving me. He doesn't know when he'll be back because he's hitching home, i'm not sure if he'll even come back but he promissed me he would. It should be anywheres between next tuesday to friday if he does. I need to stop thinking about him leaving me for someone else. All I think about is how he'll find someone better than me, or just some random chick to hook up with. I make myself so fucking depressed. And I have HUGE trust problems. I told him how I felt the other night. I think he cried but I'm not sure cause it was dark. I tlaked about how he should just leave me now if he's leaving for good, because if we stay together its just gonig to be worse when he does. but I just really fucking want him to stay. here. with me. my moms a bitch. she said he's leaving because he doesnt care about me and theirs no way we're in love because we don't understand what that is. we went puddle jumping on sunday night, and he splashed a dirty one all over me, and i guess he felt bad cause when we got back to his place he insisted on cleaning my feet, so he wet a towel and cleaned them really good, even between my toes then dried them off. (even though it tickeled and I protested cause I could do it myself) It ment a lot to me. I just want him to come home and stay home.. |
