head over heels
2005-03-10 17:34:38 ET

i woke up this morning with a dreadful cough.
i woke up yesterday morning with dreadful thoughts. and i feel so lost as to who i am as a person and my values in life. it is just not that great. i know my ultimate goals. but what is my stance on pot? and drugs?

pros: get high, good conversation maker, something to do with friends

cons: harms lungs, harms brain cells, feel icky afterwards, resin is dirty, its illegal, makes me hungry, red eyed, phlegm in da throat, paranoia...

okay so far the cons are more.. and i understand that.. but does that mean that i don't want to do it? or is it just that i understand that it is harmful?

and why does it get me angry? possibilities:

-nana's perceptions
-steve and ryan (both promised to not smoke it.. and they did) so maybe its a trust issue
-only really see examples of people who take it too far
-feel disappointed in myself for doing it and displace that onto others

any ideas?
*edit* on a good side i was accepted to the university of ontario institute of technology for the nursing program! pfft and the guidance counsellor said i wouldn't get an early acceptance!

2005-03-10 17:39:41 ET

hehe dreadful.

2005-03-10 21:15:21 ET


You should do what you want instead of being pressured by others. I think you don't want to do it, but you're surrounded by it. Talk to Evan more about it, so he knows (if you decide not to) that you don't want to.

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