Lisa gets a modeling gig!
2008-04-29 20:03:33 ET

*My first ever. Well, I've got one this Friday which is more of a goth/alt fashion shoot, and one next week which is more of a "natural," lying-in-the-tall-grass, artsy kind of shoot, I suppose. I've thought about how it conflicts with my beliefs, etc., but I still would love to model. It's so strange how my disgust of my physical appearance/body has metamorphosed and developed into something else, something much more mixed and positive, I think. And I've thought about, like, won't I just feel horribly awkward and shy and inadequate and unlovely? But I want to do it. And then I'll actually have some pictures to post on MySpace - j/k. I don't believe in posting pictures of anything other than your cat. And I know that it's customary and makes a lot of sense to wear makeup for photo shoots, but I still don't really like it. I still feel like I'm giving up something of myself in wearing makeup - but isn't that the point of photo shoots and of artifice? And I wish they would just see me as I am. 'Cause I kind of like that I'm totally natural and have never really worn makeup. I know that whatever beauty I might have isn't added or enhanced by it. I have high ideas about everything and incredible self-doubt and lack of self-confidence, which maybe makes it kind of weird that I'm considering a shoot in the first place. Anyway, I'm having fun thinking about what outfits to wear for the fashion shoot. Wish me good luck, guys!

*I wrote this two days ago. I feel a bit differently about it now.

2008-04-29 20:36:21 ET

sounds like fun. make-up can be just like about anything else - either artistic and beautiful or bland and pointless. but even that's in the eye of the observer. also, post some pics of yourself. its what the internet is for ;-P ha

2008-04-30 03:53:38 ET

welcome to SK!

2008-05-03 21:46:54 ET

Well, yeah, and I love it sometimes and the amazing effects that can be achieved by it. But it's still to enhance your appearance.

2008-05-27 16:45:46 ET

In much the same way paint enhances a canvas. An unblemished canvas is pretty in its own way, a painting is the same, and neither of them are really better or worse, they simply represent different things.

Enhancement isn't always artifice, and artifice isn't always bad.

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