2002-11-16 11:19:56 ET|
Well now, i am in the blah mood, i hate myself. I know i know i shouldent but i do, and no i am not trying to get sympathy, but if wish to comment i say go for it, i mean if i didnt want people to know then i shouldnt write it on her eh.. any way thats the way it goes
I have been having really strange dreams again, mostly because of my meds, well thats the reason i remember them any way. Night before last i drempt i killed my self. It was scary only because i thought that i was over that part, but truly i am not, but i am trying to get better. Any way, Life eh.. Well its a big downer, but you know, it hopefully will get better, well at least i will try to keep telling myself that so i wont go down the crapper so fast anymore...
Well hum.. i realize when i rant like this it is mildly incoherent, or maybe its excesively? i dont know, but it is how i write when i need to just write for writings sake and for my minds sake, and sometimes i add inapropreate punctuation but oh well.. or sometimes none at all. and i spell increasingly bad when i get like this as well, oh well life goes on.. bye bye for now