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2008-10-01 09:56:07 ET No matter what I get interested in, I always end up right back at art, perhaps it really is my calling, it has been one of the few constants of mine throughout my life. I just worry that if I go to school for art, it will be a waste of time and money, as much as I enjoy it and the amount of talent I have, the field is just so competitive. I would hate to get out of school and end up where I am now, looking for some crap retail or office job. I was drawing last night and it made me remember how much I love it and what a fantastic outlet it is. I might not even be able to remain in CA, as I have no job and only one possible job pending and even that does not inspire much optimism in me. I have never had this much difficulty finding a job before, talk about frustrating! Back to MO I suppose, at least than I could focus on my education and possibly getting a real career. At least if I was working part time and attending school full time, I would feel like I was working toward something, unlike currently, or at least when I had a job that is, where I was working for a paycheck, nothing more. Either way, whatever I do, I have to give up something. Ah well, no use crying over spilt milk eh? At least I will have fun the rest of the week, no matter what. I am going to Xile's Latex and Vinyl Ball tonight, Halloween Haunt on Thursday, either Shipwreck or Vagabond Opera on Friday, The 25th Anniversary Party for the Art Deco Society of LA on Saturday (I get to wear a lovely 30's evening gown that I bought a bit ago, yea!), and I am not sure about Sunday yet. Busy, busy! |
