2003-05-18 08:24:09 ET|
Today, I am having the B-Day party for my son. Tomorrow he turns three. Chuck E Cheese is gonna feel the wrath of a dozen two, three, and four year olds today...
I am dissapointed in people right now. Nobody imparticular, just people. I think I am lonely. I try to tell myself somtimes that I don't need anyone for companionship. I mean if everything ended now I could say that I have experienced alot of wonderful things and I would not leave this place with any regrets. I was married once and truly in love with someone. I have a legacy through my son. I was even a paratrooper. I beleive I have truly lived a colorful existance here.
However, if I am gonna stick around a while, company would be nice. I have been living pretty crazy since my divorce. I have a pile of phone numbers of women I could complicate myself with. None are really worth it though. I have done the wrong thing before just cause I was lonely. I am not gonna do it again. It certainly doesn't make me feel any better. I don't wanna change anybody, and I don't wanna be changed. I want compatibility.
So like Leonard Nemoy... I am in search of. Not looking too hard though. I figure it will just happen if I keep myself in the social stew of the fabulous but psychotic Vegas Valley. Either that, or I will just keep adding to the pile of phone numbers. Right now there is one person I have bumped into again that I would love to wrap myself up with. I don't know if she is ready though. I guess I will find out. I have nothing but time.
GOD I love this time of year here...