|
2003-10-30 21:57:57 ET Today was so beautiful but I can't help but think about how I've been feeling so crappy lately. This stinks. Everything is starting to pile up in my classes. It seems like I have so much to do. I hate it. If only the end of the semester would come sooner. Hopefully next semester won't be so bad. I want to take one of those lame 1-credit kinesiology classes or whatever they are- the gym-like ones. I want to do soemthing different and new like figure skating or rock climbing or scuba diving or some strange sport. aah. to relax. how fun! I miss being home. I miss being with my family. I miss seeing their faces and telling them I love them. I miss being held. I don't want to do homework. I don't want to go to class. I don't want to eat or sleep or go to work. I don't want to be alone. I feel dizzy. I feel sick. I feel like everything around me is moving 100mph but I'm standing still. I feel lost. I'm tired of thinking. I'm tired of missing. I'm tired of smiling and telling people to "have a great day". I'm tired of pretending. I want to go on vacation and relax. I want to start anew. I want to be around my friends and laugh and tell them how much they mean to me. I want to vomit. |
