2006-03-24 07:02:57 ET|
No smoking in the house. As part of my preparing to become a non-smoker, I am no longer smoking in the house. Let me tell ya...I want one...but I'm not having one...and the three cigs that Waylon left for me will last considerably longer because of it. The class as a whole is going well, I think. I feel much more motivated to quit because others will be doing it with me.
Anyhow, so my project last week was to pick one work day and one off day and write down before every cigarette when I smoke, why I'm smoking, how large my craving is, what I expected to get from the cigarette and if I got it. This week, I have to keep track of every cigarette I smoke from the end of class last night to the beginning of class next week. It's gonna be a long week...it's already becoming annoying, haha. Especially because I'm appalled at how much I've smoked. I looked at my list this morning, and I've somehow managed to smoke 15 cigarettes between class last night and right now. If it takes 5 min to smoke a cigarette, that's like chainsmoking for an hour and fifteen min. That's fucking gross, man. My other project is to change five things about how/when I smoke. Not smoking in the house is one, switching to a brand I hate is the next, and I'm not sure what the other three will be, yet...Oh! No smoking right after "at home" meals. I'm going to walk the dog instead. Also, in the am, I will do all of my dental care stuff before I have my coffee...which will be working in better gum care into my quit smoking habits! WOO! Two birds with one stone!
All of this has helped considerably. I think about smoking before I do it, now, where as before I'd just light up. I also don't chainsmoke anymore, not even at work. My cough is better, much to Waylon's and my relief, and my confidence that I'll quit and stay quit is growing with every week. I done be stoked, yo. Now...I can't wait to get to the craft store and buy stuff to fiddle with.
In other news, my sickness seems to be gone. I had to go home from work tuesday because I wasn't feeling well, which sucked. But I feel a thousand times better now. Yesturday, too. YAY! It feels good to feel "normal" again.
Anyhow, the dog is asking if I will please take her potty, thank you, so I'll be going...No cigarette until after that, tho :D YAY FOR NOT SMOKING!